clean
but it’s never that easy
my body craves what it misses
constantly tense
constantly gripped with fear
fear of slipping
fear of not being strong enough
fear of no control
everyday is a battle
i long for the night when i lay down my head and my brain can stop
stop thinking of temptation
stop thinking of the past
stop my imagination from creating things i know won’t last
but then there are moments
these simple moments
this tiny glimpse of truth
brief
but that’s all i need
the truth
the truth that set me free
one cross that’s all it took
one Man who took it all
one love that stands tall
for the broken
for the oppressed
for the eighty year old
and for the child who is fatherless
He stopped the lies that say
i’m not good enough
i can do this on my own
i don’t need God
i can fight this alone
but the shame consumes me still
until
i remember His last breath
“It Is Finished”
and with that He paid my debt
so how can i believe the lies
that i’m not good enough
that i have to be afraid to live
i wasn’t created to fear life
but to embrace the hope
that one day i might
tear down the walls and choose to fight
fight with the Man who arrested my death
to bring the hope to those who are just like me
the scarred, the weary, the broken and ashamed
to bring the good news
that Jesus changed…
Everything.
I Will Fight For Love 